I did some spring cleaning inside my head after the doctor advised me to sleep my full eight hours, so my immune system can work properly. Currently, my health is not in the best condition because of stressful changes in my life that I had to get accustom to in the last few years. Health comes first. If I’m ill and fatigue, I can’t enjoy games properly. Last year, I think I only finished three games and that was considered a lot to me, since I was struggling to juggle with personal and work life.
Life surely does come first and games have always meant to be enjoyed. I’m not going to lie and pretend my life is perfect, my gaming addiction became intense for awhile because I was once in a bad situation. But now that things are becoming relatively normal, I had to take a step back and re-evaluate this hobby. Do I feel happy? Am I realistic with how I spend my free time? If I’m not happy, then what is the point in torturing myself with games simply because it feels like a chore? Most of the games I enjoyed in the past, had a high learning curve. And that was consuming a lot of my time and energy. I considered myself a decent player but not great.
So lately, the game have been playing currently, Nier Automata, brought this to my attention:
Whether or not you enjoy something simply depends on your own heart.
The statement is very true. Lately, I prefer casual games with light puzzles for health reason. I remember when I was younger, I played games twice: 1)for the story and 2) for the gameplay. With anything, I realized I can’t just jump into something and expect to be good at it. Gradually I will become good. I don’t know why I was so hard on myself in the past. I can’t enjoy games if I have this mindset: ” I must become good!” It’s a villain-like attitude similar to one of the bosses in Nier Automata, when it said, “Must become more beautiful. ” There is no difference really. I think I exhausted myself mentally. I had to remind myself, the most important thing is not to forget that games are meant to be enjoyed. Gaming, after all, is just practicing our muscle memory and strategic ability for the most part. Sometimes we just need to set a time to cool off so that we don’t get burnt out from gaming.
I am beginning to enjoy games a bit more now because I had to be realistic with myself. It might take me a couple of months to complete this game since I have no intention to play it every day. If I truly like this game, I probably will 100 percent it naturally without feeling forced. In the meantime, I am taking pictures and just trying to take it easy.
Thank you for reading, and take care folks!