Reflection Time: My Blog Report Card

When I am gloomy I like to clean.  I like to clean my place and I like to clean my blog. As I was organizing my blog posts, I noticed maybe I should proofread before I hit the “Publish” button. I am so embarrassed, hehe. I made several typos.   Oh what a pain! I have to go through all my posts and make it pretty so that I can appear to be somewhat professional, even though I am just writing for fun.  Although lately, I think I should be more serious about what I want to achieve from this blog. What I intended for this blog in the first place has shifted. I was writing about games, but now I want to focus on my poems and songs. I would like to become a full-time poet/lyricist actually.

Yes, these days, I play games seldomly.  I did get my copy of Shenmue. I enjoy it but didn’t get very far. I am at the part where I need to join the mafia to figure out who is the tattoo artist. So far, it’s a fun detective/drama type game. I feel like I am playing an Asian soap opera.

One  character that stood out to me the most is the old lady. She kept telling Ryo (the protagonist) baby Ryo to stop wasting time. Somehow I feel that she was speaking to me as well.  I kept pressing X so she got annoyed and told me I’m hitting on her. So funny! Yeah, I will continue on my investigation. Similarly, my friends are like the old lady in Shenmue.  I am being lectured to cultivate my creative side and stop wasting time.  So that’s what I have been doing other than cleaning my place.  Telling an artistic person to be organize is like asking her to do the impossible.  Never know when inspiration strike! Once I am gone I am gone! It does take me a whole day to clean because I get distracted easily.

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Anyway, this blog will be quiet for some time. No gaming related content, as I am planning for a vacation. From now on,  I think I will do this Blog Report Card because it helps me put things into perspective. I was so close to deleting the blog after all this work.  I confess, I was feeling a bit stiff, as if I can’t breathe.  I started asking myself what’s the point? I know that my opinions are not popular, but then I realize I am  going to stand up for it anyway! And I don’t give a damn if I am a commentless blog in Seattle  as one blogger pointed out. Blogging is for my personal enrichment. If I write to gratify people it will become a chore. I already have a full-time job. I don’t need more stress in my life.  Unless you pay me, then I will entertain you gladly.

As for my final grade for my blog—I will give it a C+. Need to have a clear focus or else I’m just wasting time writing when I could be relaxing. We all know that writing takes time. On a good note, I think I have been good at attempting to be consistent. That’s quite an accomplishment for me since I get bored easily. By now, I think my blog would have been deleted. Thank goodness, I read my old posts. I put a lot of time into it so I will stick around.

 

 

 

Playing Survival Mode at Work

Things have normalized in my working life. My quirky self have been accepted by the new peers. I’ll be honest, I am not like them–they are detailed-oriented, neat, and particular.  Those traits are admirable. I was a feeling a little out of place because I’m a bit sloppy but they are willing to cooperate with me.  They had to use video game analogy for me to understand how to do certain procedures since they know I like games very much.   When I think about video games in comparison to education–I don’t think they are too far apart–one is just more entertaining than the other.

Speaking of education, I think that is why I enjoyed taking the quizzes in D4: Dark Dreams Don’t Die If you are not familiar with the game,  there is a section where the player answers the steward’s quizzes. There are three parts: beginner, intermediate and advanced (if I can recall).  Gradually the rules get strict and unforgiving as you move to the next level. What an ingenious idea to belittle someone and insult their intelligence. This will make them study harder so they won’t become a dummy!   But please do not imitate this act in real life.   It’s not kind (yes I am talking to you mental abusers!).  Not everyone has the same learning ability, gifts and talents.  So working together is very important. We need each other to get through the day!!

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When there is a major change in life, it’s always uncomfortable getting used to new things  and there is always that temptation to run and go back to what is familiar. I am glad I got through it and gain some wisdom this last few stressful months. Thinking back in my life, there were several times I feel inadequate because I didn’t believe in myself and as a result, there were some missed opportunities.  In general,  if I play it safe all the time, I will never grow as a person.  That’s a big challenge because  I’m on the reserved side.  Learning from my past mistakes made the transition to the new department achievable.

It is kind of strange how I put so much energy at work that the last thing I want to do is come home and play games and think.  Although, I am close to completing Virtue Last Reward and halfway with Rule of Rose.

Well that’s it for now. I leave you folks with a pleasant song to listen to by the Beach House.  This song makes me feel very calm.