Playing Survival Mode at Work

Things have normalized in my working life. My quirky self have been accepted by the new peers. I’ll be honest, I am not like them–they are detailed-oriented, neat, and particular.  Those traits are admirable. I was a feeling a little out of place because I’m a bit sloppy but they are willing to cooperate with me.  They had to use video game analogy for me to understand how to do certain procedures since they know I like games very much.   When I think about video games in comparison to education–I don’t think they are too far apart–one is just more entertaining than the other.

Speaking of education, I think that is why I enjoyed taking the quizzes in D4: Dark Dreams Don’t Die If you are not familiar with the game,  there is a section where the player answers the steward’s quizzes. There are three parts: beginner, intermediate and advanced (if I can recall).  Gradually the rules get strict and unforgiving as you move to the next level. What an ingenious idea to belittle someone and insult their intelligence. This will make them study harder so they won’t become a dummy!   But please do not imitate this act in real life.   It’s not kind (yes I am talking to you mental abusers!).  Not everyone has the same learning ability, gifts and talents.  So working together is very important. We need each other to get through the day!!

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When there is a major change in life, it’s always uncomfortable getting used to new things  and there is always that temptation to run and go back to what is familiar. I am glad I got through it and gain some wisdom this last few stressful months. Thinking back in my life, there were several times I feel inadequate because I didn’t believe in myself and as a result, there were some missed opportunities.  In general,  if I play it safe all the time, I will never grow as a person.  That’s a big challenge because  I’m on the reserved side.  Learning from my past mistakes made the transition to the new department achievable.

It is kind of strange how I put so much energy at work that the last thing I want to do is come home and play games and think.  Although, I am close to completing Virtue Last Reward and halfway with Rule of Rose.

Well that’s it for now. I leave you folks with a pleasant song to listen to by the Beach House.  This song makes me feel very calm.

 

 

 

 

 

Making Some Changes

It’s October. Weather is pleasantly cool, and I”m starting vacation next week, although I am not going anywhere special. I’m taking the time off to recharge mentally and focus on polishing up my songs. 

Awhile ago, I was working with a musician friend, but we don’t talk anymore.   I think he gave up on me because we were not on the same wavelength. I am an introvert. He is an extrovert. I’m calm.  He is chaotic.  I am a morning person.  He is a night person.  But mainly because he told me video game is a waste of time and he was trying to turn me into someone that I am not. I don’t like that feeling.  

I guess artists have different ways at looking at the world.  One, you create art because you want the glamour that comes with it, or you create art because you feel inclined to imitate your universe so that you can see your creation from a third-person perspective. In the end, you make sense of yourself and your reality.  But of course, this is just my observation. Hmm…to be honest, I don’t even know if I am making any sense writing this.  

Let’s just say, I have been doing things alone creatively and have been obsessively playing the same song that has so many different versions over and over.  Do I think it’s good? I have no idea. All I know it’s from my heart and I am giving birth to it.   So this is part of the reason why I have not been active on this blog. So I am afraid this blog might shift from games and more towards creative works in the upcoming future. I don’t want to surprise anyone.  That doesn’t mean I have given up on games. I still play them when I can.  In fact, I will be playing Nonary Games next week. I am excited. Well, I think it’s time to sleep.

Thanks for reading.

        Signing off~ 

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