My Video Games Shopping List (Part II)

There were only a few games I am interested  from watching E3. It’s a good thing. This will give me a chance to clear my backlog and help me save up money for bigger things.  I got some big plans at the end of this year.  It all work out just fine.

So I will name the games I am looking forward to here. Not all of them are from watching the E3 event.

#1 Bayblon’s Fall

Reminds me of Xenoblade Chronicles/ White Knight Chronicles.

#2 Sekiro: Shadows Die Twice

Honestly, this trailer makes me worrisome as it reminds me of Nioh.   Even though I have a hard time getting into Nioh, I will attempt to play it again.  When I was playing Nioh  last year, my brain was already fried. I had way too many  things going on in my life.  I realized I have my limitation.  Brain is overheated. Need sleep.   I am willing to give Nioh another try though.  Some people prefer Nioh gaming mechanics over Dark Souls. I am a bit surprised because I didn’t really like how fast Nioh moves in comparison to Dark Souls. Every time I play this type of game, I do get the adrenaline rush–droplets of sweat dripping down my forehead.  Game can’t get intense sometimes.

I must admit, I am glad  FromSoftware is not making the same thing.  There are so many games out there that imitate Dark Souls success. It is rather annoying.  There is even a twitter account dedicated to that.

#3 Soul Calibur VI

I like fighting games because I like watching martial arts films.  Soul Calibur is my favorite fighting game franchise as it involves swords. I like hitting, cutting, hacking, and slicing things very much.  A great game to play to blow off some steam.

#4 Shenmue 1 & 2 Remastered

I never got the chance to play the first two installments. This will give me a chance to experience the game before Shenmue 3 release. I heard that the game came into development after being inspired by a musical piece.  I think this one of the games that have that romantic quality.  It reminds me so much of the international films (Hong Kong) I grew up watching as a kid.

That is my list of games.  These games will keep me busy for next few years.  Every time I told myself I am quitting games because modern games disappoint me, some new game come out looking all flashy, grabbing my attention, I find myself back to where I started.   So that’s why I give up trying to give up games.  It’s like telling a person to stop drinking tea.   Now if only have the proper time to enjoy them–it’s very difficult these days.  Adult life is so demanding.

P. S

My co-worker is excited for Last of Us II and asked me if I feel the same.  I actually  turned around so he can’t see me giggling.  People do have different taste in games surely.  Even though Last of Us never did appeal to me, I am actually currently playing the game so I can give my proper thoughts on it.

Playing Survival Mode at Work

Things have normalized in my working life. My quirky self have been accepted by the new peers. I’ll be honest, I am not like them–they are detailed-oriented, neat, and particular.  Those traits are admirable. I was a feeling a little out of place because I’m a bit sloppy but they are willing to cooperate with me.  They had to use video game analogy for me to understand how to do certain procedures since they know I like games very much.   When I think about video games in comparison to education–I don’t think they are too far apart–one is just more entertaining than the other.

Speaking of education, I think that is why I enjoyed taking the quizzes in D4: Dark Dreams Don’t Die If you are not familiar with the game,  there is a section where the player answers the steward’s quizzes. There are three parts: beginner, intermediate and advanced (if I can recall).  Gradually the rules get strict and unforgiving as you move to the next level. What an ingenious idea to belittle someone and insult their intelligence. This will make them study harder so they won’t become a dummy!   But please do not imitate this act in real life.   It’s not kind (yes I am talking to you mental abusers!).  Not everyone has the same learning ability, gifts and talents.  So working together is very important. We need each other to get through the day!!

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When there is a major change in life, it’s always uncomfortable getting used to new things  and there is always that temptation to run and go back to what is familiar. I am glad I got through it and gain some wisdom this last few stressful months. Thinking back in my life, there were several times I feel inadequate because I didn’t believe in myself and as a result, there were some missed opportunities.  In general,  if I play it safe all the time, I will never grow as a person.  That’s a big challenge because  I’m on the reserved side.  Learning from my past mistakes made the transition to the new department achievable.

It is kind of strange how I put so much energy at work that the last thing I want to do is come home and play games and think.  Although, I am close to completing Virtue Last Reward and halfway with Rule of Rose.

Well that’s it for now. I leave you folks with a pleasant song to listen to by the Beach House.  This song makes me feel very calm.

 

 

 

 

 

Sunshine Award

Thank you Lise for the Sunshine Award.   As mentioned in one of my posts, I appreciate the acknowledgement, but normally don’t like to participate in them. But since the questions you asked are answerable, and it helps give this blog some personality (I do enjoy reading these tags myself because I like to know the person behind the blog),  I’ll do it.

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I will answer three questions from Lise.  Three is a great number and I like to make things simple.

Here are the questions:

Question#1: What would be your ideal living situation?

I really like the interior design in Rogue Galaxy (PS2). I can live in its world.

Question #2: What would be your dream job? Do you already have it?

I remember watching my brother played Flashback on the Sega Genesis.  So I wanted to be like the guy in the game. So unrealistic because I am not fit for that type of job in reality. Now as I have gotten older, I care less about what I want to be but more about living a well-balanced life. I like working generally as long it’s beneficial for the society.

Question# 3: What does blogging mean to you?

I enjoy blogging.  Writing helps me put things into perspective. It really is just a place where I dump my thoughts about games since that’s the thing I enjoy talking about the most and of course writing and sharing poems.

Now, for the nominees:

I don’t follow a lot of people so it’s really hard to do the tagging.  When I do read someone’s post,  I do take my time to read it, which is why I probably get overwhelmed easily with information. It’s not always a bad thing, as long it’s good content.

Until next time, thank you for reading.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

It’s Okay To Take A Break From Games

Sometimes we play games to escape but forget to live our own lives. I tried to balance life, work and games.  I realized, I have been in a better mood ever since the sun is out. Like a cat, I like to sit by the window. Also taking Vitamin D pills prescribed by my doctor helped.  We just don’t get enough sunlight during the winter here.

Since I am in a good mood, I will share on how I de-stress because things have been intense at work to the point I asked boss to go home and rest. The last few days, I play Rule of Rose on and off.  If only I had more energy and time to invest, I want to play fighting games and there is that game called Ikaruga that I would like to master but it requires a lot of mental energy which is something I don’t have (damn you work!).  That’s okay.  At work,  I get a chance to play foosball with my attractive partner who resembles Chris Redfield (sorry ladies, he’s not straight).

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We make a good team. People are always shocked when we win. I think mainly because people didn’t expect the nice girl can be aggressive. The trick is really to stay calm and focused. If you get too anxious you would lose. I thank the skills I’ve learned from Dark Souls and my partner who, unlike Chris Redfield, has a gentle voice which made it easy for me to follow his instruction.  I do enjoy playing competitively and co-op from time to time.

Ah! Sorry for going off topic…here are ways I cope with stress, which are non-game related of course:

#1

Go for a walk. I prefer to walk in a park, but this walk was on my way back from a doctor’s appointment.  It was pleasant nonetheless because the sun was out. Haha

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I watched Mushi-Shi every night to the point my brother jokingly accused me that Ginko is my husbando. Don’t make fun of my singleness, brother. I never thought of him like that even though Ginko and I share similar fate.  What attracted me to the anime is its eeriness, sorrowful and mystical tale.  Isn’t real life bittersweet? I think Mushi-Shi captivated that feeling very well.   I watched this anime more than once–both seasons. I like the soundtrack a lot. Typically, I don’t watch anime because I’m busy with games.   HAHA

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#3

Dump yourself in a bathtub filled with epsom salt. This actually was recommended by my co-workers who are into health and wellness. This really does help. I sleep better and feel more relaxed. You should try it too.

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Okay I can go on… but I will stop for now. I think I have already talked a lot about myself.  I know that not talking at all is not good for mental health, especially if you are somewhat of a hermit like me.  Letting things off of my chest makes me feel better.  Hope you took something useful out of this and let me know if your have different ways to cope with stress.  I’d love to learn about it.

Once I feel more physically stable, I still plan to write an analysis on Rule of Rose. Until next time, take care.

 

 

 

 

 

 

Video Games Motivate Me In Life

Holy mole-y, I am afraid I might turn into an expert on survival/horror games at this rate. That’s all I write about in this blog. I am currently playing  Rule of Rose and then Cat Lady. I will do a brief analysis on those games in the near future. I actually enjoy playing variety of games. I am not all goth.

It seems that there are new challenges and obstacles I’m facing in the worklife, and that’s where I am focusing my attention on.  It is causing me some stress. I wake up feeling a bit dreadful so it is hard to focus on games when I am thinking about work.  Not everyone have faith in my ability. I feel a little discouraged.  But like Xianghua from Soulcalibur series, I put on my hand on my hips and say, No way! I am not accepting defeat. Negative thoughts go away!

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I have doubts. I hate making mistakes, but I feel like a rookie, re-learning things. But I tell myself it’s okay.  All work is stressful.  Some may be a bit more stressful than others. Throughout my life I have had several jobs (“shitty” jobs) and I’ve learned that patience and perseverance are good skills at mastering things. My destiny is to climb on top of the mountains and sit on it.  One day, I will become a powerful, influential woman (maybe I am just dreaming. Hehe).

Thanks to a particular blogger, I don’t want to embarrass him by calling him out, but his gameplay style is very similar to mine except he is more knowledgeable about video games than me based on the number of games he played and I am pretty sure, he is far better than I am.   He confessed that he had to knock down the difficulty setting to easy just to learn the flow of the game. Sometimes starting on easy mode is not a bad thing.  I acknowledge I’m playing games on baby mode these days.  There is no shame in it. Sometimes games are just too hard.  But it’s better to learn it than give up completely. Beating a game is still quite rewarding regardless of the difficulty setting.

Some people think that gaming is a waste of time. Looking back, I never gave up on my goals. It just might take me longer to get there.  I spent my youth locked in my room playing games for hours.  Truth is, I am just a tomboy in a skirt, a child at heart, eager to conquer the world,  but based on my appearance, I get discriminated a lot. I get it–I make people feel nervous.

I don’t care if people don’t believe in me.  All I know is I am quite confident in myself.  When I wake up each day, I think of my day as a fresh start. One little step I make is closer to my goal. If I don’t understand something then I will sit and learn.   And when it’s time to face the ultimate boss, I would have gathered all the resources and be fully equipped for the final battle. As long as I live, I still have a chance to do things better, to get better, and I won’t stop until my final rest. Sometimes I admit, I need to learn how to ask for help when I feel like I am drowning.  And I do feel it, but I will be okay. I will only ask for help when I’m on the verge of being K.O!

I am feeling so good right now.  I will wake up refreshed in the morning ready to battle work.

Anyway, I hope you guys stay strong even if life is tough whoever you are. If you think you are alone, you’re not. Have courage and you can do it! Until next time, take care.

 

 

I Just Can’t Complete These Games

I know I have the symptom of a gaming addict.  I sit at work writing in my notepad, making a list of games to complete. Like a kid in a candy store, I want to eat everything, but realized that not all games are made with the same quality and ingredients. There are some things I like in a game, and some I don’t.

To shorten my post, I will list three games I can’t complete.

 

Game # 1: Yume Nikki

yume nikkiThere is a more recent version that came out on Steam. I tried playing the original but don’t get why people give it a good review.  I  became extremely critical about the art in the game.  It doesn’t appeal to me.  Perhaps, that’s why I don’t enjoy it as much.  

 

Game # 2: Pandora’s Tower

ElenaYes, I like the gameplay, but Elena, I hate to admit her personality is very similar to mine (when I am feeling sane).  The game is so painful to play because unlike her, I have no support. Dad taught me to be independent, and Mom taught me to be a lady.   To see Elena so weak, I want to jump off the cliff for being a burden to Aeron (her lover) on her behalf. The thought of slowly turning into a monster, waiting for my lover to come back and feed me beast flesh so I can return to human form is depressing.  No one likes being caged up ill. Trust me. One day, I may finish it after I get new batteries for the Wii controller.  Now I am curious about the ending.

 

Game # 3: Nioh

niohI feel cheated. Why oh why did I pre-ordered this game? I was so excited on launch day that I rushed to my local game store during lunch break.  The demo fooled me into thinking the game has potential, perhaps it does. The intro to the game sort of turned me off.  I have beaten some bosses, but the game is too commercialized for me to continue.  

So what have I been playing even though I have been complaining the lack of time for games?  I am playing Dark Souls II Scholar of the First Sin, Virtue’s Last Reward and Drakengard.  Once I upgrade my laptop to gaming, I will indeed, play more pc games, particularly Dark Souls Prepare to Die Edition. I don’t care much about the Dark Souls Remastered. Why can’t they release a Demon’s Souls Remastered instead?!

I feel so overwhelmed for having so many choices. That’s what it really is.  Someone please help me decide!

Rambling About Games Aimlessly

I have not mentioned one horror video game on this blog last month. Well, why should I? I play horror video games all year round. Now let me tell you one fact about me: I think horror movies are scarier than horror games. Why?  When I am playing video games generally, I am fixated on winning.  You give me a shotgun–I blast those monsters away. You make me run and hide like in Clower Tower series–I giggle. But horror movies take that control away from me, so I have no choice but to cover my eyes.  Now I am thinking, it might be an interesting concept to develop a game about shutting your eyes as your weapon of defense and relying on sound to survive in the game. I think Siren is sort of like that.  Anyway, so that is why I don’t watch horror movies.  I can’t remember the last time I watched one. It might be about 7 years ago.  I haven’t had any nightmares ever since, and I like it to remain that way.

But this post is not about horror video games. Today, I’m just rambling about games aimlessly because that is what’s on my mind at the moment.  I know that I don’t write anything negatively or say anything negatively on this blog. So you might think that I just play anything and be satisfied. That’s not true. Behind the screen, I want to poke my eyeballs out when I play a crappy game, but I refrain.  Okay, I am just exaggerating!  But seriously,  I try to remain open minded. Some games may not appeal to me aesthetically but it doesn’t mean it’s a bad game. After all, what you like is a reflection of your heart.

Lately, I  have been playing 999 (PS4 version). This game too, was actually recommended by my brother.  So far, I enjoy the soundtrack very much and the story is quite interesting.  I have two more endings to go.  Brother told me that this game was on par with Nier Gestalt during the year 2009-2010.  I can see why.  It is well executed.

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Once I am done with the game entirely, my next game is Drakengard.  Hopefully by the time I finish the game, I won’t go crazy. I was warned that the gameplay is terrible. But that is okay, I am more interested in the thought process behind the game design rather than playing for achievements as of late. It’s more enjoyable.

P.S

I stumbled on Miyazaki picture browsing Twitter. As you know I am a fan of Dark Souls. I find this picture side by side summarizing my whole experience with Dark Souls–it’s inviting but brutal.

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