When I am gloomy I like to clean. I like to clean my place and I like to clean my blog. As I was organizing my blog posts, I noticed maybe I should proofread before I hit the “Publish” button. I am so embarrassed, hehe. I made several typos. Oh what a pain! I have to go through all my posts and make it pretty so that I can appear to be somewhat professional, even though I am just writing for fun. Although lately, I think I should be more serious about what I want to achieve from this blog. What I intended for this blog in the first place has shifted. I was writing about games, but now I want to focus on my poems and songs. I would like to become a full-time poet/lyricist actually.
Yes, these days, I play games seldomly. I did get my copy of Shenmue. I enjoy it but didn’t get very far. I am at the part where I need to join the mafia to figure out who is the tattoo artist. So far, it’s a fun detective/drama type game. I feel like I am playing an Asian soap opera.
One character that stood out to me the most is the old lady. She kept telling Ryo (the protagonist) baby Ryo to stop wasting time. Somehow I feel that she was speaking to me as well. I kept pressing X so she got annoyed and told me I’m hitting on her. So funny! Yeah, I will continue on my investigation. Similarly, my friends are like the old lady in Shenmue. I am being lectured to cultivate my creative side and stop wasting time. So that’s what I have been doing other than cleaning my place. Telling an artistic person to be organize is like asking her to do the impossible. Never know when inspiration strike! Once I am gone I am gone! It does take me a whole day to clean because I get distracted easily.
Anyway, this blog will be quiet for some time. No gaming related content, as I am planning for a vacation. From now on, I think I will do this Blog Report Card because it helps me put things into perspective. I was so close to deleting the blog after all this work. I confess, I was feeling a bit stiff, as if I can’t breathe. I started asking myself what’s the point? I know that my opinions are not popular, but then I realize I am going to stand up for it anyway! And I don’t give a damn if I am a commentless blog in Seattle as one blogger pointed out. Blogging is for my personal enrichment. If I write to gratify people it will become a chore. I already have a full-time job. I don’t need more stress in my life. Unless you pay me, then I will entertain you gladly.
As for my final grade for my blog—I will give it a C+. Need to have a clear focus or else I’m just wasting time writing when I could be relaxing. We all know that writing takes time. On a good note, I think I have been good at attempting to be consistent. That’s quite an accomplishment for me since I get bored easily. By now, I think my blog would have been deleted. Thank goodness, I read my old posts. I put a lot of time into it so I will stick around.