Playing Survival Mode at Work

Things have normalized in my working life. My quirky self have been accepted by the new peers. I’ll be honest, I am not like them–they are detailed-oriented, neat, and particular.  Those traits are admirable. I was a feeling a little out of place because I’m a bit sloppy but they are willing to cooperate with me.  They had to use video game analogy for me to understand how to do certain procedures since they know I like games very much.   When I think about video games in comparison to education–I don’t think they are too far apart–one is just more entertaining than the other.

Speaking of education, I think that is why I enjoyed taking the quizzes in D4: Dark Dreams Don’t Die If you are not familiar with the game,  there is a section where the player answers the steward’s quizzes. There are three parts: beginner, intermediate and advanced (if I can recall).  Gradually the rules get strict and unforgiving as you move to the next level. What an ingenious idea to belittle someone and insult their intelligence. This will make them study harder so they won’t become a dummy!   But please do not imitate this act in real life.   It’s not kind (yes I am talking to you mental abusers!).  Not everyone has the same learning ability, gifts and talents.  So working together is very important. We need each other to get through the day!!

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When there is a major change in life, it’s always uncomfortable getting used to new things  and there is always that temptation to run and go back to what is familiar. I am glad I got through it and gain some wisdom this last few stressful months. Thinking back in my life, there were several times I feel inadequate because I didn’t believe in myself and as a result, there were some missed opportunities.  In general,  if I play it safe all the time, I will never grow as a person.  That’s a big challenge because  I’m on the reserved side.  Learning from my past mistakes made the transition to the new department achievable.

It is kind of strange how I put so much energy at work that the last thing I want to do is come home and play games and think.  Although, I am close to completing Virtue Last Reward and halfway with Rule of Rose.

Well that’s it for now. I leave you folks with a pleasant song to listen to by the Beach House.  This song makes me feel very calm.

 

 

 

 

 

Sunshine Award

Thank you Lise for the Sunshine Award.   As mentioned in one of my posts, I appreciate the acknowledgement, but normally don’t like to participate in them. But since the questions you asked are answerable, and it helps give this blog some personality (I do enjoy reading these tags myself because I like to know the person behind the blog),  I’ll do it.

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I will answer three questions from Lise.  Three is a great number and I like to make things simple.

Here are the questions:

Question#1: What would be your ideal living situation?

I really like the interior design in Rogue Galaxy (PS2). I can live in its world.

Question #2: What would be your dream job? Do you already have it?

I remember watching my brother played Flashback on the Sega Genesis.  So I wanted to be like the guy in the game. So unrealistic because I am not fit for that type of job in reality. Now as I have gotten older, I care less about what I want to be but more about living a well-balanced life. I like working generally as long it’s beneficial for the society.

Question# 3: What does blogging mean to you?

I enjoy blogging.  Writing helps me put things into perspective. It really is just a place where I dump my thoughts about games since that’s the thing I enjoy talking about the most and of course writing and sharing poems.

Now, for the nominees:

I don’t follow a lot of people so it’s really hard to do the tagging.  When I do read someone’s post,  I do take my time to read it, which is why I probably get overwhelmed easily with information. It’s not always a bad thing, as long it’s good content.

Until next time, thank you for reading.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Pretty Girls Die

Pretty Butterfly

                                                     Here lies the pretty butterfly.

                    Pretty girls die.

                                                                       Pretty butterfly.

   Pretty girls die.

                                           I paint my lips red;

                         smoke your cigarette.

                                                                   Drink champagne,

                                  hiking up the skirt a bit higher,

                                                                         higher,

                                           and higher.

                                                                        So I can fly.

Because pretty girls die,

                                                  here lies the pretty butterfly,

             feeling high…

 

P.S

Poem is dedicated to a friend who is moving across the world. Her feminist talk and story about her unsuccessful dating life always made me laugh. I miss her so much already.  She has one of the biggest heart I’ve ever known.  It’s unfortunate that feminism has a bad connotation.  Feminism doesn’t mean competing with the counterparts; it’s  about complementing one another and celebrating our differences.  There are bigger things to worry about than fighting between the sexes. In truth, I think everyone just wants to feel appreciated and loved.

[To my friend] I hope you find happiness and love in the next chapter of your life.  You are like a beautiful flower that brings things to life.

 

 

 

It’s Okay To Take A Break From Games

Sometimes we play games to escape but forget to live our own lives. I tried to balance life, work and games.  I realized, I have been in a better mood ever since the sun is out. Like a cat, I like to sit by the window. Also taking Vitamin D pills prescribed by my doctor helped.  We just don’t get enough sunlight during the winter here.

Since I am in a good mood, I will share on how I de-stress because things have been intense at work to the point I asked boss to go home and rest. The last few days, I play Rule of Rose on and off.  If only I had more energy and time to invest, I want to play fighting games and there is that game called Ikaruga that I would like to master but it requires a lot of mental energy which is something I don’t have (damn you work!).  That’s okay.  At work,  I get a chance to play foosball with my attractive partner who resembles Chris Redfield (sorry ladies, he’s not straight).

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We make a good team. People are always shocked when we win. I think mainly because people didn’t expect the nice girl can be aggressive. The trick is really to stay calm and focused. If you get too anxious you would lose. I thank the skills I’ve learned from Dark Souls and my partner who, unlike Chris Redfield, has a gentle voice which made it easy for me to follow his instruction.  I do enjoy playing competitively and co-op from time to time.

Ah! Sorry for going off topic…here are ways I cope with stress, which are non-game related of course:

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Go for a walk. I prefer to walk in a park, but this walk was on my way back from a doctor’s appointment.  It was pleasant nonetheless because the sun was out. Haha

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I watched Mushi-Shi every night to the point my brother jokingly accused me that Ginko is my husbando. Don’t make fun of my singleness, brother. I never thought of him like that even though Ginko and I share similar fate.  What attracted me to the anime is its eeriness, sorrowful and mystical tale.  Isn’t real life bittersweet? I think Mushi-Shi captivated that feeling very well.   I watched this anime more than once–both seasons. I like the soundtrack a lot. Typically, I don’t watch anime because I’m busy with games.   HAHA

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#3

Dump yourself in a bathtub filled with epsom salt. This actually was recommended by my co-workers who are into health and wellness. This really does help. I sleep better and feel more relaxed. You should try it too.

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Okay I can go on… but I will stop for now. I think I have already talked a lot about myself.  I know that not talking at all is not good for mental health, especially if you are somewhat of a hermit like me.  Letting things off of my chest makes me feel better.  Hope you took something useful out of this and let me know if your have different ways to cope with stress.  I’d love to learn about it.

Once I feel more physically stable, I still plan to write an analysis on Rule of Rose. Until next time, take care.

 

 

 

 

 

 

Video Games Motivate Me In Life

Holy mole-y, I am afraid I might turn into an expert on survival/horror games at this rate. That’s all I write about in this blog. I am currently playing  Rule of Rose and then Cat Lady. I will do a brief analysis on those games in the near future. I actually enjoy playing variety of games. I am not all goth.

It seems that there are new challenges and obstacles I’m facing in the worklife, and that’s where I am focusing my attention on.  It is causing me some stress. I wake up feeling a bit dreadful so it is hard to focus on games when I am thinking about work.  Not everyone have faith in my ability. I feel a little discouraged.  But like Xianghua from Soulcalibur series, I put on my hand on my hips and say, No way! I am not accepting defeat. Negative thoughts go away!

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I have doubts. I hate making mistakes, but I feel like a rookie, re-learning things. But I tell myself it’s okay.  All work is stressful.  Some may be a bit more stressful than others. Throughout my life I have had several jobs (“shitty” jobs) and I’ve learned that patience and perseverance are good skills at mastering things. My destiny is to climb on top of the mountains and sit on it.  One day, I will become a powerful, influential woman (maybe I am just dreaming. Hehe).

Thanks to a particular blogger, I don’t want to embarrass him by calling him out, but his gameplay style is very similar to mine except he is more knowledgeable about video games than me based on the number of games he played and I am pretty sure, he is far better than I am.   He confessed that he had to knock down the difficulty setting to easy just to learn the flow of the game. Sometimes starting on easy mode is not a bad thing.  I acknowledge I’m playing games on baby mode these days.  There is no shame in it. Sometimes games are just too hard.  But it’s better to learn it than give up completely. Beating a game is still quite rewarding regardless of the difficulty setting.

Some people think that gaming is a waste of time. Looking back, I never gave up on my goals. It just might take me longer to get there.  I spent my youth locked in my room playing games for hours.  Truth is, I am just a tomboy in a skirt, a child at heart, eager to conquer the world,  but based on my appearance, I get discriminated a lot. I get it–I make people feel nervous.

I don’t care if people don’t believe in me.  All I know is I am quite confident in myself.  When I wake up each day, I think of my day as a fresh start. One little step I make is closer to my goal. If I don’t understand something then I will sit and learn.   And when it’s time to face the ultimate boss, I would have gathered all the resources and be fully equipped for the final battle. As long as I live, I still have a chance to do things better, to get better, and I won’t stop until my final rest. Sometimes I admit, I need to learn how to ask for help when I feel like I am drowning.  And I do feel it, but I will be okay. I will only ask for help when I’m on the verge of being K.O!

I am feeling so good right now.  I will wake up refreshed in the morning ready to battle work.

Anyway, I hope you guys stay strong even if life is tough whoever you are. If you think you are alone, you’re not. Have courage and you can do it! Until next time, take care.

 

 

I’m Not A Pervert! It’s The Developer’s Fault!

Even though, I have no intention of becoming a game designer or create my own games, I find it quite fascinating to learn about the thought process behind it.  The whole creativity process  is not so different from the way I approach to songwriting, which is something I do as a creative outlet.

Yesterday, my friend visited me and wanted to watch me play games so I picked Virtue’s Last Reward (PS4 version) of all the games because I find this game quite relaxing to play on a lazy evening.  As my friend and I were solving puzzles together, one particular part stood out to me: the pinned photo.

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In this section,  I understand the importance of creativity in games.  In the Crew Quarters, there are four rooms, which contain four lockers. I have to find all the passwords in order to unlock the lockers.  In one of the rooms, I was given a coin, after entering the right set of numbers to a locker.  The coin is used to scratch off the woman’s clothes which reveal a different set of numbers to a password for a different locker in a different room. At that moment, I was thinking, indeed,  I’m playing a scratch lottery ticket.  As I was so focused on scratching off her clothes, my friend, (who is a prim and proper type of gal) looked at me and accused me of being a pervert.  In my mind, I was just trying to find all clues so we can progress in the game.  Even though, I am not a guy and can never understand what’s so appealing about half naked women, the experience was exciting as I was one step closer to solving the mystery underneath her clothes. To my surprise, the numbers were never underneath her clothes, they were located on her arms and legs!   It was then, I realized a great game is highly creative and has the ability to engage the player against his or her own will on a subconscious level.  I say this because I am not a gambler or a pervert, but I was lured and trapped into the developer’s craft.  And strangely, it put a smile on my face and made me laugh.

After completing this section in Virtue’s Last Reward,  I realized that authenticity is important to creativity, which is the intent to create and capture the audience. In some ways, I think developers should have more control over the medium and listen less to the consumers, but please be mindful.  Honestly, I  don’t think consumers know what they really want. They just want to play a good game.  Lastly, I want to make an argument that a game is a game, a medium to itself.  All the fancy stuff such as the art and music only enhance the overall experience and bring it to life.

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[To my friend if you are reading this] Sorry this was supposed to be a secret between you and me that we found ourselves playing a pervy game, but it was a lot of fun solving the puzzle together.

I Play Dark Souls II: Scholar of The First Sin to Unwind

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I realized not playing Dark Souls games for awhile, I miss it a lot.  I am playing it again and realized that sometimes, music is unnecessary as much I love listening to music.  I can hear my character’s footsteps echoing in the hallway. I like the sound of clashing and clinking of my weapons. I can hear the wind so I think I feel the wind touching my skin. I hear the waves splashing onto shore and that makes me feel so calm. I like to explore the game’s universe. 

Currently, I am at Huntsman’s Copse,  but got sidetracked because I am looking for materials to enhance my dagger. There are two bosses I’m about to face.  I know what to expect because I played the game on PS3. Since I am too cheap for Playstation Plus ( I don’t play online), I have to make sure I am strong enough to handle the boss alone. Maybe summon NPC to distract the boss so I can blast my spell from afar. Get too close, I will use dager and quickly cut it up.  But I don’t know if my plan would work. 

One thing I love about the souls series is its educational gameplay style. If something doesn’t work out, then try something else. My only gripe about this edition is that there are too many enemies, and they make game more difficult on purpose. Strangely though, it feels like a new game because of the placement of items, characters and number of enemies.  I cannot rely on my old guide for reference apparently. 

 

P.S  here is a fat cat for you, just chilling like me. Hehe

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