Awhile ago, I wrote a post about my struggle at work on how video games motivate me in my life. A lot has happened in between since that post. Things did normalize for a bit but then got crazy. There has been some ongoing drama at work that I don’t even need to watch Korean drama to be entertained. I get enough dose of entertainment at work. Yeah, that’s how bad it was. On the positive note, I gain the respect from my boss. He told me I have good work ethic and I’m the nicest person in the world. Wow, what a nice compliment! You can thank my mom. She taught me to be polite. My alter ego can be actually disturbing. I prefer alone time, killing demons or blowing things up in virtual reality. It calms me down.
Sounds like I have a dual personality. I am not fake. It’s just being courteous. At work, things can get really stressful because meeting deadline is a big thing there and when we are tired and under pressure, it’s hard not to make mistakes. Some people take it personally and unfortunately, some people are not always friendly and cooperative. One of the girls from my department couldn’t get along with other girls. She was really mean and nasty to the point some people did not want to approach her. She eventually quit. It’s a shame as she was really bright. I really wish she had more patience, and most of all, I wish she wasn’t so hard and critical on herself. I know she was suffering from anxiety. She told me she got a lot of pressure from her mom about her weight and her overall look. Personally, I think she is really cute. I get it. It’s hard to accept yourself when the Asian mom is critical.
This work incident made me think of the game I played earlier this year: Virtue’s Last Reward. The text below helped me cope during those difficult times. I don’t think she was aware her mean talk was like a knife. It cuts people up and reduce them to little particles. For awhile, I wanted to quit my job. She was so unpleasant. With that attitude, no one wins in the end. Humans can achieve great things if they work together and respect one another. In the end, I think all of us just want to do our our work and go home so we can sleep soundly. I know I want to go to bed having pleasant dreams. Oh I was so annoyed. I broke out from stress just thinking about it.
I hope the girl understand that grown ups should learn to cooperate. You are still a child, if you think the world center around you.
Anyway, in the upcoming future, I plan to play Final Fantasy VIII because it’s my brother’s favorite Final Fantasy game, and I want to write an in- depth analysis and share it on this blog. Why not? Writing and talking about games casually can be quite fun. It helps me release stress. But first I need to complete Shenmue. It may take a couple more months at this rate. There should be a trophy for the slowest gamer on the planet because that’s really me.
Until next time, take good care of yourself and Happy Halloween!