Holy mole-y, I am afraid I might turn into an expert on survival/horror games at this rate. That’s all I write about in this blog. I am currently playing Rule of Rose and then Cat Lady. I will do a brief analysis on those games in the near future. I actually enjoy playing variety of games. I am not all goth.
It seems that there are new challenges and obstacles I’m facing in the worklife, and that’s where I am focusing my attention on. It is causing me some stress. I wake up feeling a bit dreadful so it is hard to focus on games when I am thinking about work. Not everyone have faith in my ability. I feel a little discouraged. But like Xianghua from Soulcalibur series, I put on my hand on my hips and say, No way! I am not accepting defeat. Negative thoughts go away!
I have doubts. I hate making mistakes, but I feel like a rookie, re-learning things. But I tell myself it’s okay. All work is stressful. Some may be a bit more stressful than others. Throughout my life I have had several jobs (“shitty” jobs) and I’ve learned that patience and perseverance are good skills at mastering things. My destiny is to climb on top of the mountains and sit on it. One day, I will become a powerful, influential woman (maybe I am just dreaming. Hehe).
Thanks to a particular blogger, I don’t want to embarrass him by calling him out, but his gameplay style is very similar to mine except he is more knowledgeable about video games than me based on the number of games he played and I am pretty sure, he is far better than I am. He confessed that he had to knock down the difficulty setting to easy just to learn the flow of the game. Sometimes starting on easy mode is not a bad thing. I acknowledge I’m playing games on baby mode these days. There is no shame in it. Sometimes games are just too hard. But it’s better to learn it than give up completely. Beating a game is still quite rewarding regardless of the difficulty setting.
Some people think that gaming is a waste of time. Looking back, I never gave up on my goals. It just might take me longer to get there. I spent my youth locked in my room playing games for hours. Truth is, I am just a tomboy in a skirt, a child at heart, eager to conquer the world, but based on my appearance, I get discriminated a lot. I get it–I make people feel nervous.
I don’t care if people don’t believe in me. All I know is I am quite confident in myself. When I wake up each day, I think of my day as a fresh start. One little step I make is closer to my goal. If I don’t understand something then I will sit and learn. And when it’s time to face the ultimate boss, I would have gathered all the resources and be fully equipped for the final battle. As long as I live, I still have a chance to do things better, to get better, and I won’t stop until my final rest. Sometimes I admit, I need to learn how to ask for help when I feel like I am drowning. And I do feel it, but I will be okay. I will only ask for help when I’m on the verge of being K.O!
I am feeling so good right now. I will wake up refreshed in the morning ready to battle work.
Anyway, I hope you guys stay strong even if life is tough whoever you are. If you think you are alone, you’re not. Have courage and you can do it! Until next time, take care.