Video Games Motivate Me In Life

Holy mole-y, I am afraid I might turn into an expert on survival/horror games at this rate. That’s all I write about in this blog. I am currently playing  Rule of Rose and then Cat Lady. I will do a brief analysis on those games in the near future. I actually enjoy playing variety of games. I am not all goth.

It seems that there are new challenges and obstacles I’m facing in the worklife, and that’s where I am focusing my attention on.  It is causing me some stress. I wake up feeling a bit dreadful so it is hard to focus on games when I am thinking about work.  Not everyone have faith in my ability. I feel a little discouraged.  But like Xianghua from Soulcalibur series, I put on my hand on my hips and say, No way! I am not accepting defeat. Negative thoughts go away!

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I have doubts. I hate making mistakes, but I feel like a rookie, re-learning things. But I tell myself it’s okay.  All work is stressful.  Some may be a bit more stressful than others. Throughout my life I have had several jobs (“shitty” jobs) and I’ve learned that patience and perseverance are good skills at mastering things. My destiny is to climb on top of the mountains and sit on it.  One day, I will become a powerful, influential woman (maybe I am just dreaming. Hehe).

Thanks to a particular blogger, I don’t want to embarrass him by calling him out, but his gameplay style is very similar to mine except he is more knowledgeable about video games than me based on the number of games he played and I am pretty sure, he is far better than I am.   He confessed that he had to knock down the difficulty setting to easy just to learn the flow of the game. Sometimes starting on easy mode is not a bad thing.  I acknowledge I’m playing games on baby mode these days.  There is no shame in it. Sometimes games are just too hard.  But it’s better to learn it than give up completely. Beating a game is still quite rewarding regardless of the difficulty setting.

Some people think that gaming is a waste of time. Looking back, I never gave up on my goals. It just might take me longer to get there.  I spent my youth locked in my room playing games for hours.  Truth is, I am just a tomboy in a skirt, a child at heart, eager to conquer the world,  but based on my appearance, I get discriminated a lot. I get it–I make people feel nervous.

I don’t care if people don’t believe in me.  All I know is I am quite confident in myself.  When I wake up each day, I think of my day as a fresh start. One little step I make is closer to my goal. If I don’t understand something then I will sit and learn.   And when it’s time to face the ultimate boss, I would have gathered all the resources and be fully equipped for the final battle. As long as I live, I still have a chance to do things better, to get better, and I won’t stop until my final rest. Sometimes I admit, I need to learn how to ask for help when I feel like I am drowning.  And I do feel it, but I will be okay. I will only ask for help when I’m on the verge of being K.O!

I am feeling so good right now.  I will wake up refreshed in the morning ready to battle work.

Anyway, I hope you guys stay strong even if life is tough whoever you are. If you think you are alone, you’re not. Have courage and you can do it! Until next time, take care.

 

 

I’m Not A Pervert! It’s The Developer’s Fault!

Even though, I have no intention of becoming a game designer or create my own games, I find it quite fascinating to learn about the thought process behind it.  The whole creativity process  is not so different from the way I approach to songwriting, which is something I do as a creative outlet.

Yesterday, my friend visited me and wanted to watch me play games so I picked Virtue’s Last Reward (PS4 version) of all the games because I find this game quite relaxing to play on a lazy evening.  As my friend and I were solving puzzles together, one particular part stood out to me: the pinned photo.

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In this section,  I understand the importance of creativity in games.  In the Crew Quarters, there are four rooms, which contain four lockers. I have to find all the passwords in order to unlock the lockers.  In one of the rooms, I was given a coin, after entering the right set of numbers to a locker.  The coin is used to scratch off the woman’s clothes which reveal a different set of numbers to a password for a different locker in a different room. At that moment, I was thinking, indeed,  I’m playing a scratch lottery ticket.  As I was so focused on scratching off her clothes, my friend, (who is a prim and proper type of gal) looked at me and accused me of being a pervert.  In my mind, I was just trying to find all clues so we can progress in the game.  Even though, I am not a guy and can never understand what’s so appealing about half naked women, the experience was exciting as I was one step closer to solving the mystery underneath her clothes. To my surprise, the numbers were never underneath her clothes, they were located on her arms and legs!   It was then, I realized a great game is highly creative and has the ability to engage the player against his or her own will on a subconscious level.  I say this because I am not a gambler or a pervert, but I was lured and trapped into the developer’s craft.  And strangely, it put a smile on my face and made me laugh.

After completing this section in Virtue’s Last Reward,  I realized that authenticity is important to creativity, which is the intent to create and capture the audience. In some ways, I think developers should have more control over the medium and listen less to the consumers, but please be mindful.  Honestly, I  don’t think consumers know what they really want. They just want to play a good game.  Lastly, I want to make an argument that a game is a game, a medium to itself.  All the fancy stuff such as the art and music only enhance the overall experience and bring it to life.

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[To my friend if you are reading this] Sorry this was supposed to be a secret between you and me that we found ourselves playing a pervy game, but it was a lot of fun solving the puzzle together.

I Play Dark Souls II: Scholar of The First Sin to Unwind

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I realized not playing Dark Souls games for awhile, I miss it a lot.  I am playing it again and realized that sometimes, music is unnecessary as much I love listening to music.  I can hear my character’s footsteps echoing in the hallway. I like the sound of clashing and clinking of my weapons. I can hear the wind so I think I feel the wind touching my skin. I hear the waves splashing onto shore and that makes me feel so calm. I like to explore the game’s universe. 

Currently, I am at Huntsman’s Copse,  but got sidetracked because I am looking for materials to enhance my dagger. There are two bosses I’m about to face.  I know what to expect because I played the game on PS3. Since I am too cheap for Playstation Plus ( I don’t play online), I have to make sure I am strong enough to handle the boss alone. Maybe summon NPC to distract the boss so I can blast my spell from afar. Get too close, I will use dager and quickly cut it up.  But I don’t know if my plan would work. 

One thing I love about the souls series is its educational gameplay style. If something doesn’t work out, then try something else. My only gripe about this edition is that there are too many enemies, and they make game more difficult on purpose. Strangely though, it feels like a new game because of the placement of items, characters and number of enemies.  I cannot rely on my old guide for reference apparently. 

 

P.S  here is a fat cat for you, just chilling like me. Hehe

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I Just Can’t Complete These Games

I know I have the symptom of a gaming addict.  I sit at work writing in my notepad, making a list of games to complete. Like a kid in a candy store, I want to eat everything, but realized that not all games are made with the same quality and ingredients. There are some things I like in a game, and some I don’t.

To shorten my post, I will list three games I can’t complete.

 

Game # 1: Yume Nikki

yume nikkiThere is a more recent version that came out on Steam. I tried playing the original but don’t get why people give it a good review.  I  became extremely critical about the art in the game.  It doesn’t appeal to me.  Perhaps, that’s why I don’t enjoy it as much.  

 

Game # 2: Pandora’s Tower

ElenaYes, I like the gameplay, but Elena, I hate to admit her personality is very similar to mine (when I am feeling sane).  The game is so painful to play because unlike her, I have no support. Dad taught me to be independent, and Mom taught me to be a lady.   To see Elena so weak, I want to jump off the cliff for being a burden to Aeron (her lover) on her behalf. The thought of slowly turning into a monster, waiting for my lover to come back and feed me beast flesh so I can return to human form is depressing.  No one likes being caged up ill. Trust me. One day, I may finish it after I get new batteries for the Wii controller.  Now I am curious about the ending.

 

Game # 3: Nioh

niohI feel cheated. Why oh why did I pre-ordered this game? I was so excited on launch day that I rushed to my local game store during lunch break.  The demo fooled me into thinking the game has potential, perhaps it does. The intro to the game sort of turned me off.  I have beaten some bosses, but the game is too commercialized for me to continue.  

So what have I been playing even though I have been complaining the lack of time for games?  I am playing Dark Souls II Scholar of the First Sin, Virtue’s Last Reward and Drakengard.  Once I upgrade my laptop to gaming, I will indeed, play more pc games, particularly Dark Souls Prepare to Die Edition. I don’t care much about the Dark Souls Remastered. Why can’t they release a Demon’s Souls Remastered instead?!

I feel so overwhelmed for having so many choices. That’s what it really is.  Someone please help me decide!

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It’s hard not to pay attention to world news, or just news generally. The world feels a bit crazy.  So crazy that I can’t even escape to videogame world. I don’t know how many protests and marches have occured ever since we got a new president. The constant blasting sound of the siren coming from the ambulance and the helicopters flying over the building I live in is draining my mental energy.  Today is March for Our Lives, and a couple months ago was Women March 2018.  I watched people marching almost every month now.  I can’t help but feel as if the world is spiraling down into chaos.

My apologies for such gloomy introduction to this blog post. I want to make an annoucement that I am not abandoning this blog even though there have been some changes in my worklife. I have updated the About Me page so you can decide whether you want to continue to follow me or not.  If you are a new visitor, welcome!

I have removed some old posts such as the award tags to clean up the blog. To be honest, I appreciate the tag, but I have always found it awkward talking about myself, although I’m not so shy talking about the subjects that matter to me.  During this time, I think it’s more important than ever to speak up.

On a positive note, Happy Spring!

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Detention: An Indie Horror Game

After feeling disappointed with Evil Within 2, I decided to look for a new horror game to forget that horrid game.   I found Detention, watching a Youtube video clip, and so I gave it a shot.  I am not going to lie: survival horror/horror is my favorite video game genre and there is a good reason why.  But let’s not talk about that–leave it for another time. Let’s talk about the game.

This game is indeed creepy without the flashy stuff we see in AAA games.  You play a female protagonist, a teenage girl  who is undergoing personal hardship.  Like the protagonist,  I can recall experiencing that familiar overwhelming sadness when I was a teenager. I think it was so bad that the counselor and the school nurse had to check my wrists to see if I cut myself. Looking back, I think it was a typical thing for a teenage girl to go through (damn you hormones!).  So yeah,  it’s kind of nice to play a character that I can relate to and one that is realistically feminine.  A lot of games I’ve enjoyed  in the past were largely male-based.  I have my reasons–that too, I will tell you readers at a later time. 

I won’t say much more about this game because I encourage you to check it out for yourself. Oh, and one last thing I do want to point out  about the game: the storytelling is ambiguous but not overly complex. The game has enough suspense and plenty of symbolic meanings, which I like very much.  There are 4 chapters and it didn’t take long to beat (around 2-5 hours). I think there are mutiple endings, so replay value is good.  

Overall, I’d like to say great job RedCandleGames for crafting a pleasant horror game and for keeping me entertained during these winter evenings.  

 

The Evil Within 2: Not My Cup of Tea

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 I deleted my old post because I got so upset, and then restored and revised it since I do have something to say about the game.  The game had a lot of potential, but unfortunately it wasn’t what I was hoping for. 

Call me picky when it comes to survival horror games, but I believe concepts do play a major role in horrifying audience.  Take for example, Silent Hill 2 will always be my favorite survival horror game because the developers know exactly how to define horror and  create a game which still haunts me till this day.  I learned to love the fog in winter because I experienced the chillness in Silent Hill. But this post is not going to be about the survival horror genre or Silent Hill games.  This is about The Evil Within 2 and my thoughts on it. Please keep in my mind, I am speaking from an artist perspective and from someone who dislike movie-like games. 

With any artistic medium ( I think some video games are a form of art), it’s wise not to imitate even if you are under the spell of nostalgia. I am not a fan of imitation.  You can  admire a successful game that haunts people–but reinventing the same thing doesn’t frightened people (at least for me) because we already walked that path before. The Evil Within 2 feels like a confused horror amusement park.  It cannot decide whether it wants to be an action or horror game. Hey, some people might like this game for the way it is and good for them. Personally, I don’t like games that feel generic.

What disappointed me about the game is its strong opening. The game introduction was atmospherically scary. Yes, there was a little chase here and there. Fun for a bit, but then it got sloppy  as soon as all the suspense is dispersed and the climax is reached. From there on, I found myself playing a cheap thrill. If gameplay is lacking then I expect a decent story, but this game has neither of them. The game design feels unpolished.  Why recycle boss enemies once it has been defeated? Why do I need to level up my skill trees in order to make the game a bit more fluid? There is some obvious technical issues with the game, especially in combat.  The cheesy dialogues amplify the  cliche plot.  I started asking myself, “Why I am playing this game?” I forced myself to complete the game anyway because I hate not completing games. I would have enjoyed the game more playing as Juli Kidman because she is an interesting character. 

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I enjoyed the first game even though it was not perfect. So I was hoping The Evil Within 2 is more of a refined version of the first. Sadly no. The only thing that Evil Within 2 has is a simplified story.  You  play as a detective who is given the chance to save his daughter.   In my honest opinion, the game failed to horrify and tell a good story because its attention was focused on trying to be a movie.

So no, I do not recommend this game if you have particular taste for horror games like me. I prefer the earlier Resident Evil games over The Evil Within series now that I have finished the game. This game is designed intentionally for the mass market (movie watchers), and there is nothing wrong with that. This game is just not my cup of tea.